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One step forward….1000 back

Grief is unpredictable, heavy and messy, the books say. To know all these facts is one thing. To live them, is another… I thought I was doing better. I thought we were maybe out of the darkest woods. But then, I got to the point where I couldn’t work outside our home. It’s okay, I said the myself, I can still do things from here. But I can’t. I have found everything such a struggle. I can manage a maximum of three days of work out of the five. I get so anxious about balancing work and caring for Emma and the house that juggling all the balls is a job in itself. I am back to waking up at night. And being so, so scared. Of the present. Of the future. Emma has kicked off again on Sunday. She told her daddy that her “mummy loves one child and it isn’t me!”, in floods or tears and rage. I went to see my GP yesterday. This time, this one was kind and understanding. She …

#Glorious Adventures: Dreaming of Mumbai

If I could squeeze my human self into a bouncy molecule transcending time and space I would embark onto a trip to the ends of the earth. We dreamt so many times with Alex of travelling to India so Mumbai would be a good place to start. Mumbai is huge and its population vast, over 18 million souls, but I would fit perfectly in travelling as a speck of dust. I would not want to do sightseeing, in the touristy sense of the word, although I am sure the views would be spectacular… A speck of dust has other dreams… I would love, instead of hastily overloading my senses with almost palpable but somewhat artificial beauty, to just be… I would love to be the dirt that rests for a while on, old, well-travelled shoes. Listen to their stories;  bask in the richness of experience they carry of places visited… I would love to be the tear that stains imperceptibly the cheek of the old, sweet lady who guards the even older temple. The emotional …

On self-assurance, selling oneself short and other employment matters

I have been very busy lately and had to sort out tons of things and tie loads of loose ends when it comes to employment and personal life. Although I had the summer off and only went back to work at the end of August, by mid-September my part-time day  became a source of huge stress and I had to step right back and evaluate the best strategy concerning it. I have also been extremely busy on the blog, with many great things happening, like Mama’s Haven winning UK Best Parenting Blog Award with the Blogging Edge network and loads of respectable brands approaching us for collaborations and reviews. I did, at the same time, land a wonderful part-time job which I can do from home, during hours that suit our family. As a  Social Media and PR Manager with the fastest growing coupon site in the UK , I haven’t had a dull moment since starting working for them, with every day a steep learning curve that challenges and motivates me! But in the …

Professional Blogger Tips and Advice

Ha, when I first started this blog, three years ago, I would have never even dreamt that Mama’s Haven would one day come to be classed as one of the top mummy and inspirational blogs in the UK! Then this month, a number of things happened. For starters, I realised that my ultimate dream of living off my blog has become reality! I did not make the amount I need to live off in cash but I did make it in review products and partially, remuneration! A great point to be at and definitely, a big reason to get out of bed each morning, knowing that my work will bring in satisfaction and rewards! October 2015 has also been the month that saw Mama’s Haven chosen as one of the top 5 parenting blogs in the UK by the Blogging Edge community (by the way, voting is still open until tomorrow and does take literally one second, do stop by and give us a loving vote, please!) which has been a huge honour and the …

To the mother whose child was just given the all clear…

I rejoiced with you this week, when I read your good news. I rejoiced with you from the darkness of my bereaved parent existence, knowing that you will never get to know my reality. I rejoiced for your son and I breathed a sigh of relief, knowing the pain my son endured in the last two weeks of his life and that fact that yours was spared all that, and you the totally heart-wrenching feeling of helplessness of having to watch him die. But your social media update, which was picked up by so many churches, individuals and even by a local newspaper, made me very sad too. You see, your update, as hope giving as it is meant to be, (as I do suspect you see it now as your life “testimony” to the Church, a confirmation they so desperately seek of a God who can perform miracles), has totally left out several facts and a huge group of parents and believers who have fought “the good fight”, just like you, but never pulled …