All posts tagged: heaven

How Heaven will be like…

Thoughts of Heaven have been filling my head lately. Following Georgie’s death, I deconstructed everything that I was told to believe in. Slowly, slowly, a new perception and world view have emerged. I have reconstructed the world through the prism of our loss. The world needs to make sense to me as it stands now, a world where loss and pain are very real. There is a word we have in Romanian, “dor”. A word very hard to translate. It is more than missing. It is more than yearning for someone. It is that deep, deep longing in one’s heart that can never be satisfied once someone you love passes away. I miss my son. I yearn for his presence. I long to be with him. My being is at times struck down, literally, with the burden of loss. So Heaven as it was portrayed to me in church, as I was growing up, does not make sense anymore. We were created unique and savagely independent and in need of expression. So you know what …

On Heaven

Heaven is a dilemma for the human mind. Not for the human heart, though. In the weeks following Georgie’s death I couldn’t allow myself to imagine heaven as I knew my imagination, even my wildest imaginations, could not do it justice. My heart had this deep and intricate and intimate perception of what heaven looks like but my brain, my inner eye couldn’t imagine it, couldn’t “see” it. Go on Google and type in “heaven images” and you will understand what I mean. Your soul will be totally dissatisfied with the images it sees because it knows that heaven cannot be rendered in images. Its magnificence and glory cannot be portrayed by any drawing. Have I told you before that on the night Georgie died, the very moment he transitioned from this earth to the heavenly realm, I heard almost audible clapping? You can call me delusional or grief-stricken or plain exhausted but I know in my heart, in my spirit, that Heavens were roaring with cheering and clapping when my baby boy entered Heaven. …