I did debate a lot whether I should or not link up to Living Arrows again.
Last time I did, I had two Living Arrows.
Sadly, one has left us for Heaven, way too soon.
But then I decided to go for it.
In my heart, I still do have two living arrows.
One lives only in my heart for now. And in my memories.
I think of my Georgie every day. Many times a day.
Most of the time, I remember the bad times.
The hospital days. The trauma.
But today, when I thought of him, I had this memory.
Of him grinning. Being happy.
Not understanding the magnitude of his diagnosis.
Not knowing that chemo would make him sick.
Just basking in our love.
Just soaking in the attention and the pouring of our hearts.
I remembered your smiles today, sweet boy.
And for a moment, I smiled too.
In wisdom, knowledge and years.
This weekend we spent a lot of time together as a family.
Emma loves being out.
Playing rich imaginary games.
And hospitals and hide and seek with daddy.
Asking questions about everything.
About life boats.
About earthquakes and “bolcanoes.”
One living up in Heaven.
One living with us.
I love them both equally.
And I am so proud they were given to me, as precious gifts.