All posts filed under: Letters to Georgie

On grief, anger and pain

It’s been two months since my baby died. I remember reading this post back in July, on the 5th, the day my baby died, and having no clue about grief. How could I have had? The numbness wore off. The numbness that followed the indescribable pain of watching my sweet son die. The baby that I longed for with fierceness, the boy who was so bright and was meant to become a doctor and save so many lives, according to his doting Bica. My mini me… And numbness was followed by anger and searing pain. In a chaotic and overwhelming melange of emotions and feelings. I have been angry. With everyone. With myself. With God. With Alex. With Emma. With people saying things. With people not saying things. With pregnant women. With women with babies. With people sending me shitty links meant to “guide” me through my grieving process. “Spiritual” links. With people staring dumb-folded when I say I lost my baby.  But do you know what has been the overwhelming feeling since the numbness …

Dear Georgie: 100 things

    My precious boy, there are so many things you will miss here on earth I would have loved you to enjoy. 1. A splash in the sea 2. Warm, buttery toast 3. The feel of the rain on your cheeks 4. Teething 5. Play dates and mums and tots 6. Watermelon 7. Mosquito bites 8. Ice cream 9. Bedtime stories 10. Christmas mornings 11. Warm socks 12. Sippy cups 13. Toy trains and airplanes 14. Cuddles in mummy and daddy’s bed in the morning 15. Squabbles with Emma 16. Learning to share toys 17. Potty training 18. Bee stings 19. Superman dreams 20. Playing football with daddy 21. Learning to cook with mummy 22. Scones 23. iPad games and movies 24. Playgroup 25. The local library 26. Big boy pants 27. Your first girlfriend in primary school 28. Your first kiss 29. Your first heartbreak 30. Finding your true love 31. Sex 32. Your first summer job 33. Your first paid job 34. Your primary school teachers 35. Making friends 36. Finding out …