I associate waiting with bad things.
Waiting for the train unnerves me.
Waiting rooms are a waste of time.
Waiting for hubby past the time he said he would be ready? Annoying!
Waiting for news, a torture.
I have been waiting for a long time for my professional life to kick off. I have been writing about this before, about my feelings of unfulfillment and dissatisfaction. My life is great except for this one thing: my work. I have a great hubby and a beautiful child. My parents are still alive and relatively well for their age. I have travelled the world. I have great friends. But I have no steady work and more aggravating, no life vision and this has started to get to me lately. You see, I am in my 30s and I feel this is the time to work and make a future for myself and my wee one. If I don’t work now, when I have all my capacities, when will I work?? I also feel that I can do so much!! I have studied for so many years.I read the combined contents of at least a library. I have so much knowledge I could put to use. And I am passionate about so many things. Generational and educational issues. Child exploitation. Women issues. Poverty. Illiteracy.
I am also a believer. I believe I was created for a purpose. I believe my life(professional life included) came with a pre-determined plan from above. I believe I am precious in God’s eyes and kingdom and I have a role to play. I believe the passion that thunders in my heart about changing generational patterns and providing meaningful education for children from one-parent families is God-fuelled. I believe the yearning in my heart to educate women with low self-esteem in God’s truth and reality comes from Him as well.
I believe I have been equipped and prepared for a time like this. I am just waiting for Him to make everything click and fall into place in this area of my life as well, just like He has done in all the other areas.Meanwhile, all I can do is pray, hope and wait some more because as Lamentations 3:25 says “The LORD is good to those who wait for Him.”
I will duly inform you when my waiting is over.