Linking in a day late to the lovely Holley Gerth’s series, Coffee for Your Heart.
I have been a new mummy again for the past 8 days. As anyone who has birthed and raised a child knows, looking after a newborn is rewarding, exhausting, daunting and scary, all at the same time. The fear comes mainly from facing new situations and not knowing the answer to problems and issues that we are brought face to face to. You see, as human beings, we like security. Lack of risk. Routine. Anything that takes us out of our comfort zone can be terrifying.
So I have this new human being who depends on me entirely. He has been gifted to me. He has been birthed in prayer and love and desire. But he is NEW. New to me, anyway. Terrifyingly new. So anything throws me. Because I am completely out of my comfort zone. For now, anyway. Until a new comfort zone is created.
Until then, I have two simple choices, really. To struggle through it all and do it in my strength. To believe the voice that tells me I am alone in this and I just need to weather it. OR, I can turn to my Creator. The One who knows my baby better than I would ever know him. And believe His voice:
- “I will never leave you, nor forsake you…”
- “The ones who rely on the Lord shall renew their strength…”
- “You are the apple of my eye…”
Ladies, I choose to believe His voice. And to rely on Him every day in order to cope with the unknown. The sleeplessness. The weakness in the knee. The humbling realisation that when I am weak, He is strong.
I am not alone in this, that’s all I need to know, at the end of the day…