Today’s challenge from Outmumbered is trying to see ourselves in 10 years time.

If you had asked me this six months ago I would have replied like any “normal” mummy, who had not known grief and sorrow. I would have said I would have been the happy mother of a teenage girl and a preteen boy. With a normal job. And a normal marriage.

But now we have crossed the threshold and are in the “beyond.” Beyond the unthinkable. Beyond our precious son’s death. Beyond the norm.

So where do I see myself 10 years from now?

I see myself living my life as if it mattered.

I see myself creating and keeping alive a legacy in Georgie’s memory.

I see myself as the mother of a teenage girl and if, God will choose to bless my womb, of another precious son or daughter.

I see myself still married and still loving my husband.

But I also see myself in the “beyond.”

Beyond living my life as if it mattered, I see myself living it full of joy and acceptance.

I see beyond the creation of a legacy for Georgie a hoard of blessings being poured on a multitude of lives. And all in my precious boy’s name. And with the help of his Saviour.

I see beyond being a mummy to Emma and to a possible rainbow baby. I see myself “mothering” the unloved, the lonely and the needy. And who knows, beyond the ordinary, the extraordinary of having another child, a child not of my womb but of my heart.

I see beyond being merely married to the man I love and respect. I see us growing stronger and more in tune with each other and with what God wants us to do as a powerful and influential couple in Him.

I see beyond the pain we feel now, I see hope and joy and success and life!