I sat there, in silence,
remembering the silence we shared
two summers ago.
When you were only a grain,
in my pregnant belly.
I sat there, willing my memory
To go back and find you there,
A squirming little life,
Full of promise and joy.
I sat there, in silence
and I remembered the times,
we shared, just you and me.
Those dark nights at home, when your little bones were sore.
Those long days on the ICU ward,
with only each other
and the beeping machines pumping chemo into your tiny frame
I sat there, with my precious memories
of you, sweet baby boy,
feeling you close,
so very close
to my very bruised heart.
I sat there, in silence,
and for a split moment in time,
managed to transcend death and space and time,
and we were together,
You express so much in so few words; my eyes leak as I wish you could touch in person and memory both.
Yes, so do I, Deb, so so much :-(.xx
So beautiful, so heartbreaking Oana. You write so well, i hope it brings you a small amount of consolation. Hugs xx
It does, Emma, it does. More often than not, this is the only way to remove that heavy burden, called grief, lift off my chest. Writing is my therapy, my catharsis.xx
Such a beautiful post Oana, and one that I so wish you didn’t have to write x x
Thank you, Cass, I wish I could do a magic spell so no child has to die, ever again!xx
Oana, sending love and thinking of you. Sorry I have no words of comfort
There are no such words, Jen but your caring comments do soothe my pain. Thank you!xx
Such beautiful words and a beautiful picture of the two of you. Georgie looks so much like you in this photo Oana xxxx
I love this picture so much, Helen, I remember the morning we took it, so full of hope for the future!xx
You write so beautifully, I have tears in my eyes. I read in a reply to another comment that writing brings you a little solace and I’m glad, it must be so tough.
Oh Oana, you write so beautifully.. Sending you lots of love xx
Oana, there are no words… all I can do is send you virtual hugs and all my love. xxx
Beautiful and moving. I hope your memories console you. Thinking of you lovely x
Your poem is beautiful – the yearning is overwhelming at times ❤️
This is such a beautiful poem, I am not too sure any words are needed x
Oh, I have tears for you. This is so beautiful and just so sad. Sending love.
aw such a beautiful post and very lovely written
Sending all our love Oana. He is such a gorgeous little boy and will always be remembered xx
Beautiful and heartbreaking writing. Love to all of you xx