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September was…Childhood Cancer Awareness Month

But I could not bring myself to write Georgie’s story down until tonight.
I got pregnant with Georgie in late spring 2013. I had been longing for another child, to complete our family unit, for years but hadn’t had the courage until then as I had been plagued with severe antenatal and postnatal depression with my first pregnancy with Emma.
From the very beginning, my body knew something was amiss with the pregnancy. I had very strong pains in my belly, ended up in the A&E but was dismissed home with pain killers and the advice to return if the pain didn’t subside. It did.
I also started waking up at night, shortly after that. If only I had known that this was my “borrowed time”, I would have used it to pour all my love and affection on my unborn baby, much more than I did…
There were also other signs no-one could interpret then but in my heart, I know that they were all related to my baby being sick, even from the womb.
There were unusual blood result readings, when the pregnancy was confirmed two months later, at a private clinic in Thessaloniki, where we were spending our summer.
There was also an unusual fetal heart rate reading, too high but not unusual, the doctor had tried to reassure.
My unborn baby was in pain and I didn’t even know it…
I gave birth to Georgie on the 22nd of January 2014. I lost a lot of blood, it had come in waves with every contraction, as a way of my body trying to tell us something was wrong, very wrong with this baby. The birthing room did look like a battle field, I remember thinking. We had entered a battle, a life and death fight and we were totally unaware as yet.
The first signs appeared when Georgie was only two weeks. He stopped feeding properly at the breast. He has this continuous restlessness, as if…as if his whole body was sore…
And other things that I could not interpret as symptoms, as I would have never dreamt of a baby having blood cancer.
There was the time I cut his nails and pinched a bit of his skin. And he wouldn’t stop bleeding. And crying…For ages.
And then, close to three months, he started this strange sweating at night.
His pillow would have been soaked but his body was ice cold and needed two blankets.
And still, I didn’t know to recognise the signs.
But I knew something was not right. Something was terribly wrong, my gut instinct was saying and I kept taking him to the A&E and family doctors for the restlessness he was presenting and now, his poor appetite.
They didn’t recognise the signs either. Even experienced doctors, with a lifetime of medical practice, wouldn’t fathom a baby sick with something as terrible as cancer…
And then, he started running low-grade fevers and having diarrhea. Blood tests were done, finally and a week after Easter 2014, at only three months my baby was admitted into the hospital, with a very strong suspicion of leukemia. The diagnosis was confirmed after TWO spinal taps, as even the CHU doctors in Belfast couldn’t believe it.
And a very rare and aggressive form of it as well, AML, M7 strand, usually diagnosed in men over 65 and children with Down syndrome.
From the word go, my baby had no chance, I know it now.
The drugs he was given were not designed for his tiny frame but for much older men.
The fact that this form is so rare in children, much rarer than ALL, meant that no research had been done and nothing effective was administered.
My baby died after two and a half months of chemo.
I write this with the knowledge that since then, an alarmingly growing number of babies and small boys have been diagnosed with AML in Northern Ireland.
I truly hope that research will go into this and soon, so that no more children will have to suffer what my son had to suffer in his last two weeks of life and no parents will have to live with the questions, the pain and the haunting memories.


  1. Aww gosh this is so incredibly heartbreaking. I can’t even begin to imagine what you and your family have been going through. He looks such a happy and beautiful boy in your photo despite his cruel illness.

  2. So very brave of you to share yours and Georgie’s story. But so very important as more needs to be done to raise awareness of illnesses like Leukaemia, especially in children. And to help raise money to fund the vital research. Sadly so much fundraising and research seems to focused on adult cancers, when tragically so many children are diagnosed with or die from cancer each year. I was aware of parts of Georgie’s journey but not it all, I am so very sorry to you and your family for all that you have been through and all that you continue to face. Those final 2 weeks with Georgie must have been so very very hard. A truly special little boy, love to you all xxx

  3. Christina Canavan says

    I know Oana. I feel and know every ounce of your pain. Lots of love xxx

  4. Imi pare nespus de rau pt durerea ta pe care nu pot decat sa mi-o imaginez. Imi pare nespus de rau ca baietelul acesta cu ochi asa frumosi si zambetul asta mare nu e printre noi. Ma gandesc la el, ma gandesc la tine, mami, la surioara lui si la A. si va doresc din inima sa nu mai existe vreodata nici un fel de durere in viata voastra. Pt ca prin ce ati trecut, si ce continuati sa simtiti deja e prea mult pt o viata de om.
    Va imbratisez pe toti 3 si-i trimit un pupic si lui G.🙂

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