A pain that never goes away
What were we found to be lacking, Lord, that you took our baby away so soon and in such a cruel way? Could we not have been trusted with him for another year or decade? Were we so much worse than so many other parents on this earth who are still enjoying their children and know nothing of the pain of losing their heart in the cruelest of ways? Is he still remembering us or has your glorious realm and presence deleted our very existence from his memory? What am I supposed to do with this pain that leaks like puss from me and makes people draw away? What can I say and do? How many times can I say sorry for my sins. How many times shall I repent for wanting another child? How will I ever forgive myself for bringing the sweetest child in the world in order for him to suffer? Cause suffer he did, from the very beginning, till the very end. And it is Sunday. And we should celebrate Your …