Author: Oana

It’s the simple things…

It’s the simple things that make life worth living. It’s not the power or the money or the game of winning. It’s the breathing in of freshly cut grass. It’s creme brûlée eaten with a teaspoon. It’s the sound of the birds celebrating a new day. It’s the freshness of a warm croissant flaking away. It’s the love that you share with the ones you call your own. It’s the giggles and the cuddles and the chatting about “your best day.” It’s the realisation that my best day was when. I held both my children close, delirious on the blessing of togetherness. It’s the love that transcends time and grave and death. It’s the knowing that the love chain that binds us together knows not of space nor of years. It’s the simple things that make life worth living. It’s the knowing that you, my boy, are never too far away, As you live in my heart, And my love pulses for you,only one heartbeat away.

#LiveItForGeorgie

Many of my friends have asked recently about our plans for the 5th of July. On the day, we will mourn the loss of our baby boy afresh as the time will mark, cruelly, a year since Georgie left us. I know that this boy is loved by many more people than we will ever know and I decided to include you all in the marking of what has been the most difficult year of our lives. On the day, we will be on our own. We will spend the day remembering a sweet boy’s face, personality and character and will do things to honour his short life. This is where I want to invite you to take part. I want to launch a campaign called #LiveItForGeorgie. I want to invite you all, alongside family members and friends, to create a bank of memories in the memory of my boy. You see, Georgie never got to do many things on this earth. The simplest things, that we all take for granted. Like ….eating an ice …

Anger

I am so angry tonight. I don’t recall being so very angry ever before. I am so angry I could punch someone, with the intention to harm and hurt. I am so angry, I could smash my whole house down. I am so angry, I had to get out of bed and come and write this as my therapy. I am so angry, I do not care who reads this and how it could be misinterpreted. I am so angry, I just want to scream. Last night, I found out the cancer Georgie had has been doing fresh victims. But most likely, my search for an answer to the “why?” will remain forever unanswered. As people do not want to associate with parents who have lost their children. As if losing a child makes me or my lost child losers. They think they are special. Different. Not like me. They do not understand that malignant cells do not have prejudices and unless stopped at the root cause, they will do the same harm, again and …

Do you know…

Do you know how close I am to the brink each and every day? Do you know how much it takes out of me, to act as if everything is okay? Do you know how my heart aches when I see your brand new boy? Do you know how far I feel from everything that will ever mean joy? Do you know how much courage it takes to choose to live every single day, When the alternative to stop breathing and wither away brings less disarray ? Do you know how your never tested faith reeks insult to my broken heart? Do you know how your reminders of heaven nail me to the ground? Do you know that it can never be enough, To have only one child with me, while the other’s shadow hangs over us? Do you know how hard it is to reveal my bruised heart to you, Knowing that, most likely, you do not have a clue? Do you know that my baby has been gone now 11 months, And that …

These boots are made for walking. A TRESPASS review

I have been fantasing about a pair of walking boots forever. Even more so from the beginning of this year, when we started exploring more of our beautiful Northern Ireland, I have felt the need of a pair of supportive, reliable and sturdy boots that will make the adventure of discovery a pleasure. I finally found the absolutely perfect pair when I was asked to review the lovely Ridgeway Women Technical Boots by Trespass. They are exactly what the website describes them to be: “… a fantastic choice for budding adventurers and avid explorers.“ I put them to test last week, when we went exploring the North Coast and had to walk for a good few hours over all sorts of terrain, from muddy to pebbly to hilly to inclined. “The boots benefit from a suede and mesh upper section, which is great at helping keep your feet fresh as it promotes the diffusion of air. Additionally, the boots help to keep your feet free from dampness thanks to our Tres-tex technology, which repels away …